diary of ahde vefa
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hi guys i am listening - urge overkill-girl,you'll be a woman soon- while writing here. in sight i have no problem yes i am sitting in my bed and studying an exam which i am going to take 2 months later.
wait a minute..my days goes too fast nowadays. haha i have to remember which event is first or which one is second etc. i even can't remember the sequence of the events. but why my friends? of course it is because of my inner world. it changed a lot. for instance 2 months ago, i was thinking my mother loves me. guess what? she didn't love me from the beginning. besides she is the reason why my father and my sister don't love me, don't listen my words or or don't take me seriously. yes, think a while about this awkward situation.i thought she is the most compassionate one to me for a long time, i trusted her every minute of my life, didn't want to accept her faults to others,i said all my secrets to her , i asked her help for any reason of family.but she? she was and is trying to keep using my father and my sister to control me. i want to say her in face ' hey dillhole, what's up? you can't control me anymore, does it hurt you? i don't call you like in the former times, are you sad? i don't listen and resent you while you are talking behind your husband's back, how are you mom? ohh sorry you haven't got anybody for talking behind your husband.. and you don't have anybody to ask how you should behave the one's who hurt you. in fact you deserved all the bad behaviours and i got they were right to treat you like that.
anyway i forgot which event is first, which is second etc. because of this awareness.