diary of ahde vefa
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hi me again..
the days passed very fast without him. i went izmir after exams and stayed with my family for 3 months.those days were so good for me but not good for my family. cause i had a bad father who doesnt love us.
anyway after summer holiday i went back istanbul. my big problem was i didnt have got a place to stay and my lessons started. the second problem was i havent got any other clothes with me. cause my family want to sent them after i got a place for staying.( why i didnt have got a place to stay? :)) cause they threw me out of the house. the reason was ' i had got a boyfriend' . )
one of my classmate took me her dormitory in secret. yes i stayed secretly at a dormitory for a week. while going to my college or applying for a government dorm i went out secretly. at last i found a place for staying in a government dorm thank god. those days were both sad and also funny for me. i made a lot of friends at that dorm, they had free minds and hearts. actually i still seeing one of them ..
i took my suitcase, prepared the documents which they wanted for applying and went my new dorm. after the applying procedures i went to my room. it was for six person,has 6 beds and cabinets, has a table and only a chair. put my some stuff into my cabinet, took off my clothes and went my bed. called my family for informing that i found a place and want my clothes. then i fell asleep.
he called me several times and send messages while i was sleeping. it smiles me even now :) think about that, i was expelled from my previous stıdent house because of him and he didnt help me with the problems at that situation.. did i still love him?.. why? why? it wasnt a pure love i think now, it turned into a ego war for me.. yes ! i made a plan for him guys dont worry for it ;) and i won my little war :) my plan was 'make him fall in love with myself and left him like a homeless guy ' . ( remember i was expelled cause of him )
while we were talking at phone, i didnt show him my real intention and talked like there didnt any problem with us about my throwing away from previous house.we decided to seeing eachother again as lovers.
and i started to think about the details of my plan. meanwhile it was dinner time and my roommates came one by one. they were all medical students and at the begining they were good people. ( they were good friends really ) we met eachother and ate dinner together at dorm's cafe.
after dinner they ordered me tea and we went to my new dorm's terrace and chatted a little to get to know eachother. they were all a doctor candidate and i was a unemployed candidate cause of my branch. anyway after tea, they went to study their lessons and i went to shower. ( they gave me some clothes for wearing at dorm ).
while doing these things, i was also thinking about my plan's details. the most important point was not pity for him while taking my revenge cause i still liked him. but how could i make him fall in love with me?