diary of ahde vefa
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hi me real me. we don' talk very much i know. actually when did we talk together ı don't remember. so let's talk it.
do u remember the last hapiness you felt before the ten years of unemployment? it was long time ago but i miss that feeling. yes your last hapiness is being loved by your lover.he loved you so much, remember? you loved him very much too. then you left him cause of his jealousy. why he jealous of you... cause of your beauty? bullshit!!
cause of your attractiveness ? bullshit. think about that.
he and i met at 2004. after he went to military for being temporary soldier, i passed the university exam then i was accepted by ist. university.he came to istanbul after me and bought a cafe for working.yes every good things and bad things lived at that little cafe.
let's go to the first day of being at istanbul.
my family wanted me to live at a dormitory.so we looked for a good girl dormitory.after we found a good one, father left me there and went izmir.
i have 5 roommates which i dont remember even their names or faces. wait a minute yes one of them is yasemin haha :)) it was the first time i was going to live alone ( aalllll aloneee ) my god yes i feel the freedom even now. being free is the most gorgeous thing in the world. i could do anything i want, i could go anywhere i want, i could buy anything i want .. and i fall in love with istanbul for being free at it, i guess.
anyway my bed was in front of the room's door and my closet was not very big but enough for me. i placed my clothes in the closet and took a shower ( the dormitory has 6 bath. for each floor 2 bath it has ) and ate dinner then went my room again.i was very tired and after that day my lessons would begin. so i went to my bed for sleep, looked my phone but he didnt call me or text message if i came istanbul or not. that was horrible thing for a lover but i was so asleep..