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neyin yerini sorarsam sorayım verdiği cevap : ' orda' dır.
tuvalet fırçası mesela
ya da ' hadi be ordan çöp suyu seni '
bireysel psikoloji adlı kitabını okuduğum şahsiyettir kendisi. kitabından sonra hasta olan insanlara bakışım değişmiştir.
the meeting day came at last. we didnt see eachother for months and i was so excited.what would i wear, how would i catch up 17.00 o'clock ( his cafe was far away from my dormitory) and i didnt know istanbul .
woke up in the early morning and went to school fortunately that day's lessons finished at noon. i did make up and took a bus to his cafe. in istanbul's traffic my way took 2 hours but in normally it takes 30 minutes i guess.
and i saw him, how i missed my sweet guy. i don't remember what he weared but he was and is a handsome, very charming man. (my heart was beating like it would come out). we drank tea and began talking about our changes. while we were talking his phone began ringing. he didnt pick up his phone and muted the phone. while we were talking i could see his phone's light on and off regularly so i suspected why he didnt answer it.
some customers came and went meanwhile. and when he went to loo i took his phone. it was ringing still.his male friend was calling ( was it a man ? ofcourse it was a girl with a man's name ) wait for it and i began to look at his messages. yes there was a lot of messages form a girl. they talked about everything but me. i began to cry cause he is my first lover.dear me what a bad situation i was in. about 10 minutes later he came. i asked him who is blabla? he was shocked, his face turned red.
left him there and went my dormitory. i deleted his number, messages and photos ; threw away his gifts which he gave me before. that day i waited him to call me or text me but he didnt. he didnt call or text for a week. and that week a new song came out from seksendört. the song suited my situation :) it's name is ' ölürüm hasretinle ' . yes that song fuck my heart over and over for months.
let's turn his calling. he said he was very sorry, it was only for fun ( o my god really? for fun? who said a person ' aşkım, tatlım etc. ' for fun? ), he loved me very much etc. but it was not enough for me and i said i didnt love him anymore ( haha i was deeply love him while i was saying that) and i wanted to focus on my university life.' sorry and dont call me anymore' was my last words.
after hang up the phone, i began to cry again cause i was in love with him. in the meantime i thought to begin knitting the scarf for valentines day gift. why? cause i was such a stupid who thought knitting scarf for a guy who cheat on her.
as the days passed my exams began and i started to study for my exams and began to make friends at my dormitory. but it was so hard if each of you were totally incompatible. not problem for me, i had already a full schedule and it was ramadan days.
dindarlar bütün sorulara cevap verdi de ateistlerin cevap veremediği tek soru kaldı *
beşiktaş'ı artık beşiktaşk diye okuyorum emeği geçen taraftarlara burdan selamlarrrr
ibrahim erkal deyince ' aşkından yanayım mı' ,
' sana değer '
ve şu sıralar bilal sonses' in de seslendirdiği ' sevme' şarkısı geliyor aklıma.
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